From all Roleplaying and Staff duties.
Roleplaying, obvious, all my characters were in plots with Gaser's and he's gone and as it seems most likely not coming back.
But that's not all, even my other characters, all roleplaying and staff duties. I'll lurk to see the outcome of what's happening, but don't ask me to approve anything or post.
I can't take this anymore. I have very few friends as it is, now one of my closest friends that I talk to constantly is gone. What's more? He's gone for reasons I am completely powerless to help. He's hurting emotionally and mentally, and there's not a damn thing I can do about it!
I'm sitting here constantly thinking of anything I can do...Do I call his family and try to reason? Do I wait for the almost nightly call from the hospital (which didn't happen last night), or what? Waiting it out is torture, knowing some and not knowing all.
I'm just ready to jump state line and hitchhike to Los Angelas just to see if he's okay! To talk to him and do what I can to help! But... even that's wishful thinking, no way I can get a ride there. And even if I could...
The mother and his uncles wants to blame me and say I fabricated what he did, manipulated, and brainwashed him into it. Even to go as far as saying I told him to do it.. and I'm not a real friend. It hurts... Not only do I have to sit here unable to do a thing to help him, but now lies are being spread and I'm being accused of causing the pain I want to help him from...
So yeah... I can't focus on staff duties or roleplaying right now while my whole mind is focused on if Gaser is okay. I'm sorry... I won't make my stuff off limits though, go on if you want, take it. I don't care. I just wish I had the power to make a miracle happen...
